1.12.2006

30.11.06 8pm

My dad said that we go whole day on the mall. I was extided and i colun't sleep because i waited it so happily.

1.11.06 8Am

i woke up,open tv and i waited when my dad comes. i waited...i waited

my brother woke up and my mom too. We had normal day. and we forgot the shopping trip.

10PM

On tv came C.S.I Miami  and the doorbell rings. I opened door and there was police. there was man and woman. Woman police asked if my mom is home. i said that are you going to arrest her? She did nothing.

my mom went outside and i tried to open door,listen on window and my mom was crying. I thought why she is crying.

i heared that my dad is dead. I didin't understand what death is.
But when my brother cried,my sister cried i thought what happend. My mom explained what death is, i cried...i was so sad,it was first time when i was sad so sad and cried so much. Later my mom's friend came to visit. I had to go to bed.

2.12.06

My Grand mother came to my home city. I hugged my grandmother and i said did you bring something to us?

My grandmother made cinnamon rolls.
Later My french Grandfather,Auntie,uncle came to finland.They heared that my dad died

3.12.06
I went my sister,brother and my sis's boyfriend to Kauniainen
We ate mc.donalds food and went back (we didin't go to school)

4.12.06
My classmate did " be better soon-cards" i loved them. i was so happy and i cried

20.5.07

We were on my dad's funerals. His ashes threw on the sea. I said goodbye to him.


15.7.09
We moved to Leppävirta.
I Lost all my friends in Espoo.

12.8,09
I started 4th class and i hoped that i would get new friends but..i didi't got them. They only bullied me. (4-5th garde i was desprered.)


2.1.10
I changed school. Well i got 4 friends,Teemu,Sanna,Niina,Mirella
Mirella moved to Ouluat summer ,Sanna and Niina started to hate me. But i had Teemu and i was with him whole 6th school year.

20.8.12
My sister's baby was born.
i hated him.
i knew he would be little devil and he is. I was the only one who didi't care him
i came more depresd and didi't give a fu*k about others.

1.12.12
My Dad's 6th year of death.